... it's and mainly about trying to find it. Since I started nodding off at 9:15, it's been scarce.
I got some this morning; a gift from my husband, who told me to go back to bed. So I did.
Oddly enough, I didn't fall asleep. Well, not right away. I was enjoying just lying there in the dark room, listening to him play with Charlie. It made me happy, and it made me feel so very lucky.
Way back when we first got together (which was not actually so long ago), I remember from time to time wishing it was years later. I wanted us to have been together for a long time with a shared history. I knew it would be great.
I can't really articulate why I felt this way. But there's one thing I'm sure about: it is great.